my mental health is not doing very well today.

listening to chet baker
drinking my last glass of wine
good stuff
life is good


waiting is lame
don't wait

come to the black lips show with me @ bowery
it'll be fun!
we'll get wankered on patron and have a blast

my lungs hurt like fuck... but other nthat i;m greT ... BEEN chain smoking dunhill reds and puffin too much trees all day.

I don't think the chain smoking isn't part of your lungs hurting? :rolleyes:

i'm sayin... btw i told this 20 yr old chick at the bar just now i was 24. *(it's the kind of place 20 yr olds can drink... but thre's also other oldsters like me playing chess in the corner) she totally bought it... but then i told her my real age... why do i always have to be the "nice guy?"/... oh well... she started holding hands with the i guess her guy after i was talking to her fer a whil;e/,... her name was giselle from puerto rico. nice....

sorry to hear that... hope yr feeling better soon.:(

Thank god it wasn't another child.

eww the black lips
crypto if youre going to boris tuesday....if i actually feel like going. i don't want to go anywhere

how's that? extreme onset of menopause?

So you are saying your tubes are tied?

no i meant early, as in youre not old at all
that backfired

oh you got your tubes tied.
i would love to be sterilized because i know for sure that i never want any kids, ever, but they would never do it. i would get denied.

i have 3 cute little nieces to play with when we visit. i'm too irresponsible to have a kid of my own, i'd rather just be the "cool aunt".

hold of on your tubal ligations. who knows where you'll be when you're 30-- or 40. or if technology keeps progressing, even 60...

Don't know really kinda mixed up right now I'm angry, tierd, hungry, & wanting a womans company...

fuck, i'm going to be in chicago on tuesday.
i won't be in nyc until thursday.

and ewww???
black lips are killer
what's your prob?

i don't like them. is that not allowed?
still not doing well. i went to bed at 3 AM and i literally have not seen the daylight. i got up at 6.30 PM.
no, i'm dead serious. i do not want children. i have held onto this viewpoint staunchly since the age of 8, i think i've made my fucking mind up.

my doctor talked me into an IUD. it mostly makes you period-free (although you still have other symptoms) and it's supposedly even more effective than tubal ligation. it's implanted in your uterus and NOTHING can happen in your uterus if something is already in there. although highly highly highly unlikely, something could still happen with tubal ligation. and with an IUD, you can always take it out. little to no hormones and it's lasts 5 to 8 years depending on which type you get. and they're obviously much safer than they were 30 years ago when they had all the troubles.

just putting that out there.

wikipedia says it will make your periods heavier and more uncomfortable.

until i read that you had me sold.

yeah cos you know your future already.

i have this friend, used to be my teacher, when she was 17 she went to the gynecologist begging for a hysterectomy.

she lived her life etc. never wanting children, got divorced, then met this guy she was nuts about-- and started thinking differently-- i think her biological clock kicked in, or maybe it was being with this guy that changed her mind. then the guy (now husband) got a terminal disease & she wanted to have his son but that didnt work out.

years later (in her early 40s) she met another dude got pregnant & conceived a kid she's nuts about. she NO WAI wanted this earlier but now wouldnt trade her life.

now im not saying that you SHOULD want children or will EVER want them.

only that you'd better be absolutely sure before you make such a final decision in your life. better to keep your options open, you never know what's around the corner.

(and that's why i don't have any tattoos-- once it's there, you can't scrub it out).

and before you tell me you know everything-- your 17 for fucks sakes. you're unfinished.