Im trying to get msn going on my macbook but to no avail. so im a little pissed off and confused.

yours sincerely,
me.

Scratching my ear

i'm relieved that i finished my paper for my art history class. i have a headache though. i can rarely listen to music unless it's in my car anymore. i think it has something to do with me feeling down for the last month. i'm excited/scared about moving to brooklyn in a few months. i'm mostly scared that i won't be able to find a job up there. and of course i'm still down about me and my (ex) girlfriend breaking up even though we still like(d) each other a lot.

I've been rather anxious for the past weeks. I already know myself for the 27 years I've been walking on the face of the Earth and I know this always comes in circles. It just comes, sits on your shoulders, takes its toll, eats you from inside, and leaves you lying dry on the pavement. Then you slowly recover, you get back into normal life and there it comes again. Endless circles.

Anxiety can mess with your head pretty badly. I'm just glad I quit my job and have like 2 weeks to breathe out and let it all out before I get back to 9-to-5 lifestyle.

I'm sorry to hear that you feel this way, crypto. I hope that you'll get better soon.

crypto- sounds like an advance (not advanceD) mid-life crisis. perhaps a good thing in disguise. who am i/ what is my life about/ etc. not necessarily a bad thing.

I think living in a state of perpetual immaturity has successfully staved off my midlife crisis. Not having children probably helped too.

Had a rubbish lunch time, a "friend" of mine told me that i was "as simple as they come" when i challenged this he told me that my "hair and shoes" were simple. It was a joke, but i didn't get it.

In general though i am doing pretty good, gotten into some new music recently which has made me passionate about music in general again. Sonic Youth have gotten a bit stale for me, so they are having a break from my music rotation.

University is running smoothly, i have a project due to be finished in 6 weeks that i could have finished in 2, so thats nice.

I am probably going to be booking a new tattoo in tomorrow, if i have the guts.

Then on to an evening of Sake and Desperados with my buddies.

worst day ever.

crypto, I am sorry to hear it man. Hope things start looking up bro. what you need is a project.

i'm also in a terribly silly mood, excuse all the tedious trolling all over the board.

whats up?

I'm fine, but feeling the metaphorical pains of being in love (some girl at my university). She's going back to Vancouver for a few years, hence the "pain".

On the other hand, I'm done my semester, but now stressing out about finding a summer job.

Have lost about 8 pounds in the last two months. I was about 20 over my "ideal" weight, and I'm determined to get closer to that. I've been following the Paul McKenna guidelines of eating when you're hungry, eating what you want but consciously, and stopping when you're full, and I've stepped up my exercise considerably. It works.

I've also cut out almost all red meat, a lot of sugar, and a lot of butter. Added more fruit and vegetables to my diet as well.

congratulations!!

Thanks. I feel better for it. Not sure it makes a huge difference appearance-wise, but I feel healthier.

I also don't want any children and am 28 now so I'm almost there!

Oh and how am I doing? Tired and can't wait for the week to end so I can chill out, it's been an intense last couple of weeks at work.

oh my god
my sitar, israj, and tabla sets were delivered today!!!
the rest should be here tomorrow!

so excited!@

puta madre, i need a nap, i'm sleepy all the time this week.

wtf. i need a coffee habit.

One word: Starbucks. Three words: Starbucks uber alles.

noo noo nooo

in albuquerque we have satellite which is a nice local chain that kicks starbo in the pantses.

not only that, there is a hipster/hippie coffee house in my neighborhood

AND

i could get nice organic fair traded coffee, etc.

BUT

1) there is a recession. fuck coffee shops.

2) i don't really need the coffee addiction. i'll brave it longer & see what turns up.

I'm decent. I have to go out on a roof in an hour and look and stars and shit then I could either:

A) Go to a free show and: A) Get bounced because I'm under 21 and it's in a bar. Or 2) get in and decide I hate the music. Or. C) Have a great time.

B) Go study stoic philosophy and read some more Ulysses

I can't decide

Good for you, man.

I've pretty much taken that same path.

I'm just hoping that it doesn't hit me 30 years from now, when I'm old and grey,
sitting on a porch in the middle of nowhere.

What hits you? That you've led a wonderful life free from the trappings and frustrations that beset anyone who's ever grown up and had children? That you did not contribute to the Earth's overpopulation? That you did not bring another human being into a doomed and uncaring cold world?

Stay free, I say. And without child.

Well, the reason for me saying it might hit me one day, is because I can imagine that having children must be one of the most beautiful things any of us can experience in our lifetimes. The unconditional love that you have for another person is probably the best reason for being here in the first place.

Life isn't perfect, but that doesn't mean it's not worth living for. Good or bad,
I'm very grateful that my parents gave me the opportunity to experince it for myself.
What else would we have, if we didn't have this?

The thought of adoption has crossed my mind on a number of occasions. I don't find its necessary to bring my own flesh and blood into this world, when there are some many other children who need a better life right now.

I think it all boils down to the fear of being alone some day, with nothing to show for it.

Sorry for hijacking this thread.

I hear you, Tokolosh. Although I choose to one day be a father.

Well, think of it this way, then. No life is perfect. Even for a parent. Maybe especially for a parent.

Man. I've been working on this one project for six (6) months now. It was supposed to be 3. Fortunately I talked the client into paying me in full a month ago and the check's cleared, so I'm free! But I'm still polishing the copy for this bastard. Why?

i'm not drunk, i have pointless busy work masquerading as homework, and i hate my friends.

how the fuck do you think i am.

Ive been listening to the Boxing, having already been out. So im wined, but not to the extent that ill be talking bollocks about how many rare LPs i own. Because i dont. And tits are great.

i feel amazing!!! thanks for asking.

I am doing good, i found out that my stomach aches were nothing. Being Vegan (during the week) and Vegetarian (at weekends) is going great.
When i get better at cooking i will be able to fully commit to being Vegan, and when i move out of home it will become even easier.

i am good
a bit hungover
but great
i had a fucking blast last night
just what i needed

I'd like to go vegetarian but I worry about not getting enough protien.

there is lots of protein in eggs, milk, and cheese. And with most vegetarian dishes you get in restaurants they substitute cheese for meet anyway.

If you're vegan you can get your protein in tofu and soya milk.

I ate meat for the first time in over a month (almost 2) this weekend. I feel odd...

That's the thing though. I've cut eggs, milk, and cheese from my diet for health reasons--mostly to keep my cholesterol down and reduce weight.

And I don't like the texture of tofu.

I'm a semi-vegetarian. I eat a lot of vegetables and fruits with just a little meat. The meat is mostly lean turkey, chicken, and fish, very little red meat.