hey invisible man. what's up. blacked out????????????

good for you, the only company i have tonight is lady lucky strike

victor- yikes. you ok?

she was nice cos she could have gone to this party we're supposed to go

Yeah, I don't know what happened, I just remember saying over and over some thing, I think it was "I want to go home."

what man? where?? i know you don't drink. wtf happened??

oh.

that kinda happened to me once.. don't remember where i was but i was going on and on about nothing and it's all black from there.

I don't know what happened, I just started thinking, and I just started going into this trance, it was weird, I mean I knew I was doing it, but could not stop.

synth: you most really miss your man friend.

victor- trances.. yeah, i get that sometimes. you cnat get out of it at all.

dude that is strange. are you on meds? got yourself checked? you should...

No it was not that. I feel weird. But for some reason I feel fine now. I went from crying to angry to a trance.

Edit- !@#$%! no I am not on meds, or any of that shit.

oh it was purely emotional? but you blacked out?? did you hit the floor??

No I was concsious, I can't really explain it, I know I was doing it. I was soaping my body, then I decided to sit down. And that's when the whole thing happened.

oooooh.... oh.... oh...

man i thought you passed out & hurt yourself or something... you scared me a bit.

you were meditating.

"There's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home"
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Sorry... it just came to mind. That's fucked up man. Hope yr alright.

sounds like youre stressed out the wazoo...

Probably, or losing my mind, but thank god I am seeing a psych tuesday. Anyways, my bastard of a boyfriend went to Vegas, and my friends ditched me so I was bored. And took a shower. Oh yeah my Bf just text me. Should I reply, nah.

NAH. I've just come to the sad, sad realization that I haven't been in any kind of sexual contact with a girl in almost 3 years. I think i need more to drink.

so i have a question man, you havent broken up yet? i dont know about the boyfriend, he seems to be gone a lot. how come he won't take you along? is he stingy?

damn...

but the drink won't get you girls (just saying) :(

in 3 years i'd go crazy i think. i really would.

No, I have no money. I don't know we always split shit up in half. Which I don't mind. Yeah he is gone a lot, I do feel I am dating a ghost. Maybe that's why this other guy has my interest, we talk way more than my BF and I.

yeah man. what the point.

i like my wife. we had a party & i'm stuck at home working so she stayed. see what i mean? sure people need their independence or whatever, but solidarity is underrated.

Yeah I understand. I don't know, I do think we probably won't last more than thursday, Ah I feel weird.

i dont like to drink when im in a bad mood, cos it makes it worse.

I could never drink, I just hate it.

Not any kinda kiss that counts, only when ive been pretty dtrunk and with friends. I think i've gone crazy to the point that my hormones arent acting up like they should, getting me all wild over some cute girl like i would have in the past.

Drrtyboots, don't worry you will find a girl.

could be depression-- depression would do that...

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ive notice in the past that when i don't have contact with a woman for a long time i start to feel really strange, like my body chemistry changes or something, and i'm never comfortable. i can't explain, but i know it's there.

but you know what, animal collective is blasting from my computer speakers and i cant be bothered with this teneage bullshit. oh man, i cnt wait to cry when i see daydream live...

Maybe, or that my dad used to drink a lot. I would actually want to be alonr for a while now. I don't want someone right now.

i feel your pain, dudes...

for the record, i haven't felt crazy over a girl in a long time, it's either indifference or total comfort. i don't know if it's a good thing or bad.

thanky ou, i hope its sooner than later. although im really not for the whole high school relationship thing considering unless you live in a place with a pretty diverse group of people, youre in your own hell of chain dangllng guys whiter thn euguene levy and girls that thinkk jean skirts, leggings and tangtops 4 out of 5 days of the week are acceptable.

God I need to pack my shit so i can move tomorrow.

i wish it wasnt sunday

It's still saturday here schizo.

well i hope you guys feel better, etc. im going to go hang out with my sonic nurse before i have to start working again.

oh damn, have some serisous fun for me. i wanted to see him on this tour but spent all my money on other shows up and coming. you know ill be thinking of all of you when im pulling out my hair during rain king.

yeah, im tired of them. we do havesome dvierse people.. but most of them are the seniros leaving us. i like older boys a lot more.

victor- get packin!