i had some scotch.. lat sunday? i think so. i went almost drinkfree on the weekdays.

ohh please, i personally refuse to have anything to do with you feeling down.

i have the drunk mucnhes all of a sudden and for the worst thing possibl:. hot dogs at 3am, oh my my mymy.

you know when a club is closing or getting lame with people leaving here?

when the hot dog cart is stationed outside the place.

hah
nah

i just feel down because.. i dont even know. i briing things on myself.

oh godm, munchies. no.

don't tell me you get the alcohol test...you know, post "party" alcohol (sometimes) makes life quirks float.

jade i hateto osee this cloud of sadness over your head, it brreaks me in three.

there's a saying here...wait, let me translate it well..."we're just drinking calmly"

means we should be fine, although i'm not drinking.

ps: i, and most of the board, love you schizo because you rule.

dont let it do that

i think ill bef ine

i f i could, id do a tripple handspring cartwheel funtanzaapalooza for uyou. unfortunately, i can do noneof those things nand you would point and laugh.

i dunno, this really feels like sitting like on the floor and just being semi silent but talkative, with a like a bottle in hand.

aw
i cant do the triplalppooza flipfest whatever
or at leat i cant do most of it
so we could just laugh at ousrelves

everye- it really does

this hapened firday in the car on the way home. silent but talking is the bst.

i laugh at myself a lot t, its great. relieves so much tension.

yeah, i fel beter once ive laughed at myself

i wish this song never ended

i was going to suggest a session of me dancing for you to laugh, but i could join the gymnastics ridicule.

hah

they knocejkd me down a tenth on vault once beacuase i didnt point my foot right when i landed and that pissed me the fuck off.

judges suck.

they do
but id di get a 9.9 on beam at least

oh god, goodnight everyr and jade, ive got a phone call to attend to.

schizo: i see how that tenth discount can grind you but 9.9 is pretty fucking awesome.

drrrty: i thought you were going sleepy on us, g'night.

yeah i try

see ya nick

it feels so werd that in a year ill be worying about getting out of here and doing bigger things.

yeah, it's big fucking step...you're going to go thru so many emotions (besides the usual logistical/actual crap), i really wish you the best of lucks and, if you end up going to ny, there's a pretty good chance we might meet.

you know something? this is the first time i have been awake this late and don't actually feel sleepy, i feel really good.

thanks

i already ahve some of those emotions. ive gotten so attached to people and not having them in my lfie is going to be strange.

i really really hope i can go to ny... im afraid ill be held back by things i could have stopped

id ont feel sleepy at all.

whats your all timefavorite song?

you're going to go thru more emotions, you still have one more year of school left, right? i'm not going to say it's the best because it's not but it's very remarkable, and you're facing a big change, so that just adds to everything.

should you be afraid? no, you shouldn't (although you might feel that, something you can't help), it seems you have it really clear that you want to go and well, most things in life have an effect on other aspects; the people you are closed to will always remain close, no matter where you are.

and don't consider those things you can't stop, be positive about them, don't let that shitty cloud be over you, minimize any chance or thought that might go against your plans; don't let it have a way to squeeze itself in.

all time favorite song for what? feeling right? angry? working out? laughing with? laughing at?

yeah, one more

im def. not afraid.. i just fel like sometimes im kiding myself.

i really wish this cloud woulnt get in my way but it is and thats the aprt of me i really hate

feeling on top of the world

yeah, i know, you feel like it's some far fetch fantasy...do everything you can as early as you can and the closer the time gets for it to happen, the more real it will seem.

if you feel that way, then don't let it bother you, let it be there, that way, it will be easier to deal with and easier to ignore. don't force it out.

top of the world...oh my...

probably what you want by my bloody valentine.

i think this summer ill take care of it. i have to talk to my mom

ooh

id probaly say last nite by teh strokes.

you haven't told her you're moving to another state? hope she understand.

and what you want, i chose it because it seems so unadulteratedly happy and beautiful with just a little of nostalgia but at the same time it's chaotic, just like life.

no she knows and both she and my dad told me toget the hell out of here.. i meant.. this kinda thing getting in my way.

yeah, last ntie is just this prefect pop song ive been close to for years

ohh yeah, talking about it makes it easier, most of the time anyway.

and the first part of the post reminds me of:

marge: homer, do you remember what you promised to the kids?
homer: yeah, when you're 18, you're out of the house!

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your song choice, sentimental reasons, got it.

haha thats our rule. mom said sa long as i need help shell give it but she wants me to be where i can be happy