well, that's very cool.

the new elliot smith album is fantastic!

im very sentmaintal.

hopefuly talking will make it eaisier. but i think moms onto it. i dont know.

i fucking lvoe elliott smith

you really strike me as a sweet girl, so of course you're going to be sentimental about all that. talking really helps a lot.

Hello can't sleep yet.

yeah, id like tot hink im fairly sweet. i dont hate.

hey victor

Hey, I am listening to the danse Society.

hey insomniac.

schizo: just look after yourself, those you care about and what you want, don't let anyone or anything get in the way of those three things and you'll do great.

i just put loveless on, i feel like feeling on top of the world, haha. i once walked thru the woods with this album on, it was such a good experience.

I am going to repeat this semester over. As I am failing all of the classes except speech. I realized, that my problem is procrastination and my depression. And not that I am stupid, I realize that I am actually smart.

once i lay on the floro aand listened to songs aobut fucking with my eyes closed and that was.. neat

dude, get yourself together; it's not good when your state gets in the way of your life.

i should try that.

victor- we ahve that smart-but-lazy- problem. tons of kids in ib have had to redo classes and give up electives to make up for that. but i know thingsll go right adn youll ace everything 2nd time around.

Yeah, I know. I am working on that. Thank god for insurance, if not I would be really helpless. So anyways, I once walked thru the streets listening to Confusion is Sex, and god was that amazing.

i think the only period in school i wasn't lazy was first grade.

I was lazy in High School, I would just show up for lunch and 5 and 6 period.

Edit- Schizo yeah I passed my history class with a B. I was happy.

Hello

i like just lying dwon taking in an albumy

I like to walk, I love taking walks. It makes me feel some sort of elation, especially if I have the music loud in my headphones. You know the experience, the city sounds drown out, all there is is you and your vision of the world. And what the world really is, god is it an amzing experience.

i like to have the music balanced with the sounds of the city when i walk and listen. i haven't done that in a while.

so everyone left to sleep?

i havent bee able to find a balance. but i do love walking aroudn to spoon's album "girls can tell".

i cant sleep

I know what you mean, right now I am writing sentences that are coming from my head. I decided not to write in my journal.

i was going tow rite in my journal but i stopped keeping it.

i would be more lazy in school but i cant

hey buzzo

fuck dont tell me you guyswetnt to sleep

Shadows etching in the sky, and the true emptiness of our times overlooked. Dreary and weary I walked to the nearest pay phone and called the ancient entity to beam me up to nirvana. Little silly fires drown out the freedom of men. Men in their last agony of war, go and hide beneath their buried memories. Lasting impressions die in the retina of my eyelids. Somber ecstasy follows the men who live in the queer times of his generation, who is underdeveloped, who is a man with no lust for life. Sounds explode in the narcissistic sky. Yellow taints my heart, my road to the farthest star. A brick is thrown at the queen, who is losing her mind anyways. Broken toys, of the future generations fill the cradle's of future mothers. Whores bring down the mood, and crash it onto gods devil's way. The city world filled with lackluster excitement implodes and gives out the secrets to humanities last chance for light. And light brings the angel crashing, and the hipsters burning into dark.

No here I am schizo.

ohh, i'm here i went off to take care of some business.

i had a journal for like two weeks. first and last time.

jorunmals drive me crazy so i cant keep them too long

victor- thats really grgeous

I keep journals, because I need to be consistantly writing, Thanks schizo, I just wrote that, this is what i call improvisation, just thought after thought.

no prob

i have notesbooks i keep specifialy for writing stories/peoms but for jounralistic things, if i try and jutw rite about my day i end up in a really bad cycle.

Yeah that is why I decided not to write in my journal. I start thinking all the bad things that have happened, and is just downhill after that. But mostly cause I will forget today even happened next week.

i have random pieces of paper and school notebooks full of writing, from "failed" attempts at writing stories or scripts to poetry, i haven't done it in a while, though.

i do what synth does, off the cuff shit.

I actually wrote a short story that made me really sad, I showed it to !@#$%! I think.

Here it is.

http://www.sonicyouth.com/gossip/sho...ighlight=angel

yeah, ijust write sentences on scraps ofpaper i have shoved eveyywhere. i pronably have a full book fi i could get them all in one place.

those lie in the line of goodness and suckness.

i have mostly scenes, some of them are a bit depressing to me, remind me of specific people and specific feelings.

victor- didnt i send you one?

I think you did a while back.