ha ha no bars! no bars! beer goggles can be problematic. oh beer goggles! i could tell some stories...

haha, do.

reading what i see you post every day, it would seem to me that you're more "buddies". which is nice. no rush you know?

one of these days though, you'll be stricken by lightning and then ouch! oh man...

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ps-- the stories-- no way, ha ha. too embarrassing!

Well you will find what you really want. It has taken me this while to know what I want.

!@#$%!: yeah, i know; not in this case.

synth: i think you have a deeply rooted fear for a lot of things and you're trying to avoid it the most you can.

schizo: hmm...yeah, you'll meet more people; that awkward friends thing is awwwwwful, let me know if you find an answer for it.

every-e you are absolutely right, I do have a fear of a lot of things. Always on the run, that is why I am starting to confront them, slowly but I am getting there.

i seem to specialize in the awkwrd friends thing. but i guess that's what happens when 90% of your friends have balls.

these guys?

The one holding the ball is cute.

nah. there's a few cuties in there, though.

dude, let me give you some advice: yes, you need to confront a lot of stuff and getting better etc. but for that, you need to at least be functional and mostly calm in life, if you're not this, things can only get more complicated; that way, things will seem clearer, tackle the problems that really fuck with your daily life the most, the ones that slow you down, scare and depress you, and then work on the more complicated ones.

just so you wake up and feel ok.

wait, you feel horrible because you fucked some new dude behind your friends-with-benefits ex... and that is "doing good"?

makes no sense. whatsoever.

schizo has a nominative boyfriend.

you'll find someone who'll make you feel passionated.

synth: doesn't feeling guilty of cheating someone defeat the purpose of the concept of friends with benefits?

Yeah every-e that is why I have been going to therapy for it.

oh. you said "friends with balls". :p

anyway my bet is that columbia will be the big shock.

get ready! i mean it. it's going to be quite a rollercoaster, and you can't be naive or you might get hurt.

I don't know how to explain this right !@#$%!.

there's no right way to explain it because it's a fucked situation, that's why you feel horrible, cos it's wrong.

if you were not into the ex-boy you should have had the balls to put some distance between he and you. it's that simple. now you're both getting hurt with interest. in all financial matters, including the economy of pain, it's always best to pay cash, and not in endless, grueling installments.

you're betting right. my problem's always been that i'm too naive. i've recognized it but i can't think of anything i can really do to be less that way.

read jane austen, of course.
oh and avoid frat parties and drinks of unknown origin. date rape sucks.

oh, another good one:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0100142/

I could never get into soccer, the only sport I ever got into was Tennis.

that i can do. i don't trust people very easily to start with. handling my liquor= dead to me.

i don't play as often now as i used to but it helps me learn get centered in gym, and balance out everything i have to do.

Yes it was a good sport to play when I took it in College.

Schizo, what is the link where I can order a cd by the Harlem Shakes?

you'd be surprised @ what a smooth talker can get you to do. oh yes. better to admit it in advance than recognize it too late. forewarned = forearmed.

schizo: be yourself, stay what you are and focus on what you want. don't worry about the social aspect much, that way, you'll meet people that are more in line with you rather than force yourself into other people that you might not really get along with.

and just enjoy ny, for baphomet's sake.

i fucking hate sports. they bore me. i just run & ride my bike, which iare solitary activities, and therefore enjoyable.

i wish i was staying longer next month in ny. it's basically a long weekend. but i guess the fact that i'm going is enough.

yes but the value of college is the social experience as much as the academic one. here you make firndships that last a lifetime. and if you're in an ivy league school, very important connections for your future life/career/etc. the social aspect is important, but can get overwhelming if you try too hard to "fit in" and forget who you are.

and you're meeting me!!!

harlemshakes.com

every-e- !!!!!!!

my point was for her to not get too caught up with fitting in, rather have things happen smoothly instead of forcing her into situation she might find awkward at best.

That is so true, I never have been anything other than I, nd met some of the coolest people in College. Like this guy who I got to know from a friend of mine. Has just become a very close friend of mine.

whatever, you're all awesome.

i've never really been one to fit in. i guess after next year it's all trial and error.

in 2 days and a month i'm meeting schizo!

but of course! especially me. mememememememememe. :p:D

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.

oh i am truly ridiculous. i like that.

in two days and a month i'm meeting every-e!!

but i lost my deerhoof (or, in the words of my dad, DEERNUTS!!!!) shirt. until i get a new one.. i'll just be a regular old arm-flapper.

!@#$%!- hahaha.

you don't worry, you be your eccentric loud lovable self schizo, lots of different people go to columbia, you'll find those who'll understand you and make you laugh and won't get nervous from your arm flapping.

anyway i'm off to bed people, i need to get some sleep, haven't gotten much lately.

^^ zee man speeks zee truth

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good night dude

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i should go write my article soon. it was due sunday. i have until the crack of

ah, yes.

sleep is overrated, but have some cool dreams.

Good night every-e.