Im trying to get msn going on my macbook but to no avail. so im a little pissed off and confused.

yours sincerely,
me.

Scratching my ear

i'm relieved that i finished my paper for my art history class. i have a headache though. i can rarely listen to music unless it's in my car anymore. i think it has something to do with me feeling down for the last month. i'm excited/scared about moving to brooklyn in a few months. i'm mostly scared that i won't be able to find a job up there. and of course i'm still down about me and my (ex) girlfriend breaking up even though we still like(d) each other a lot.

I've been rather anxious for the past weeks. I already know myself for the 27 years I've been walking on the face of the Earth and I know this always comes in circles. It just comes, sits on your shoulders, takes its toll, eats you from inside, and leaves you lying dry on the pavement. Then you slowly recover, you get back into normal life and there it comes again. Endless circles.

Anxiety can mess with your head pretty badly. I'm just glad I quit my job and have like 2 weeks to breathe out and let it all out before I get back to 9-to-5 lifestyle.

I'm sorry to hear that you feel this way, crypto. I hope that you'll get better soon.

crypto- sounds like an advance (not advanceD) mid-life crisis. perhaps a good thing in disguise. who am i/ what is my life about/ etc. not necessarily a bad thing.

I think living in a state of perpetual immaturity has successfully staved off my midlife crisis. Not having children probably helped too.

Had a rubbish lunch time, a "friend" of mine told me that i was "as simple as they come" when i challenged this he told me that my "hair and shoes" were simple. It was a joke, but i didn't get it.

In general though i am doing pretty good, gotten into some new music recently which has made me passionate about music in general again. Sonic Youth have gotten a bit stale for me, so they are having a break from my music rotation.

University is running smoothly, i have a project due to be finished in 6 weeks that i could have finished in 2, so thats nice.

I am probably going to be booking a new tattoo in tomorrow, if i have the guts.

Then on to an evening of Sake and Desperados with my buddies.

worst day ever.

crypto, I am sorry to hear it man. Hope things start looking up bro. what you need is a project.

i'm also in a terribly silly mood, excuse all the tedious trolling all over the board.

whats up?

I'm fine, but feeling the metaphorical pains of being in love (some girl at my university). She's going back to Vancouver for a few years, hence the "pain".

On the other hand, I'm done my semester, but now stressing out about finding a summer job.

Have lost about 8 pounds in the last two months. I was about 20 over my "ideal" weight, and I'm determined to get closer to that. I've been following the Paul McKenna guidelines of eating when you're hungry, eating what you want but consciously, and stopping when you're full, and I've stepped up my exercise considerably. It works.

I've also cut out almost all red meat, a lot of sugar, and a lot of butter. Added more fruit and vegetables to my diet as well.

congratulations!!

Thanks. I feel better for it. Not sure it makes a huge difference appearance-wise, but I feel healthier.

I also don't want any children and am 28 now so I'm almost there!

Oh and how am I doing? Tired and can't wait for the week to end so I can chill out, it's been an intense last couple of weeks at work.

oh my god
my sitar, israj, and tabla sets were delivered today!!!
the rest should be here tomorrow!

so excited!@

puta madre, i need a nap, i'm sleepy all the time this week.

wtf. i need a coffee habit.