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I don't get it. My mood has been apathetic (dear diary, mood:apathetic) until lately. I'm always really calm and chill, but now I feel like ripping my hair out.

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well, here's another digital hug.

i know what you mean, for a while i've been feeling so restless. this sounds insane, but this morning around 5:30 i found a lighter and went outside (with a bottle of water) to light some leaves up. it was the closest thing to just blowing something up i could get.

I wish I could go into further detail, but this is the interbutt and the wrong person could end up reading it.

ah. maybe PM?

I don't know. I just want to get it out of my goddamn head. I think discussing it might make it worse.

oh. it's cool. i understand.

i want to be out in utah, there's a situation with my sister that could get worse and i want to be there for her. gah.

Ugh, that's shit.

If you read my latest bulletin you might understand.

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bring lots of cookies tomorrow. we're having a party.

Good.

I need to drink this shit off. I'll talk to my parents tomorrow about whatever it is they're buying. I want some fucking schnapps.

Hey terrible hope everything gets better. Schizo, how are you?

Thanks, I hope it does too. How are you?

Good, bored I need a ciggie. I don't want to work at 8:30 in the morning tomorrow.

Working Christmas Eve? Damn. Did you choose to?

No I didn't choose to. But whatever, I think I am having New Years Eve off though. That one matters most to me.

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Is it the one I know?

Staying in contact with your ex never turns out well. Forget he exists.

That sux JAde.

my ex plays drums in my band. and all our friends are mutual, so over the years we have slipped into the friend category, but ther is still tension...not always fun

I think I am going to end up with my ex as a life-time partner since we cannot marry.

I see, hopefully it works out well.