try taking her to coffee and plan some more events from there!

Ugh, I feel a bit stressed out... For some reason it feels like my girlfriend is like.. pulling away... but I'm probably just over-analyzing...
I have nothing to look forward to until the summer, I don't want to have to go back to school Tuesday, I'm having writers-block, and one of my best friends has been really weird lately and pissed at me for no reason...
I wish I could be at the Arcade Fire right now... Time Machine, anyone?

I wish I had a time machine too.

i want to be at the hard rock again and have that conversation over and say everything i wanted to and hear the fucking awesome "road to joy" again

I wanna be in the future with the jew wife of my dreams apparently

hee.

steve- try talking to your friend?

i've had writer's block forever. i hope yours goes soon.

My writer's block is like trying to sprint through hot tar. Mostly because my vocabulary could use some serious work.
This weekend is awful.

mine is just a big lead sinker in me. it's not the vocabulary with me, but forming actual sentences and not just fragments or sorry emo phrasings.

what made your weekend that way? i had a pretty fun day today save for a few moments at bowling/afterwards and a few things i don't want to get into.

Well, i've worked both yesterday and today from 2-8:30. Tonight I had two friends over but there wasn't much to do because of the rain here. I've just been wishing lately that I had closer friends that had similar interests, thoughts or something. Someone who gets me blah blah. A best friend of the sorts.

yeah, i had a really tough time for a week or two a few months back when other than two or three people i had no idea who i could trust. i wish i was closer to a lot of people. i appreciate each person i know but sometimes.. meh.

Lately i can't appreciate anyone i know. I even feel distant from my family, my sister mostly. She's not the friend she used to be to me and i'm way down on her list of priorties peoplewise.

yeah, i know that distant feeling. it's mostly from my family.

three people i really liked having in band have gone off with drum corps and that didn't really help much. and some senior kids that were really cool with me are leaving.

mom and tom finished off the wine. i think that's good..

I thank fuck for my close friends... and my family is really close (well, my dad's side) and that is fucking cool. I used to take that for granted so hard, but I realize now not many people have a really tight-knit family. I'm stoked on that.
I'm also stoked that I applied to Chapters the other day... I hope I get the job.

i do too!

i'm waiting to hear back from the bakery. at first i was pretty certain i'd get it but there's a million other kids my age applying there too, so who knows.

i'm thankful for my friends. my family would be more close if we weren't crazy/spread apart. which is why i'm so glad i'm going to ca. i want to hang out with the non-crazies.

Music is happiness!

definitely

animal collective?

I love them oh so much. I'm very lucky to be seeing Lightning Bolt, Aa and AC over the course of two weeks. That'll cheer me up.

you are.

the solo melt banana show was canceled and now they're opening for tool at the shitty arena. i'm not going.

I don't think my parents are gonna let me see them either, school night. :(