ha ha no bars! no bars! beer goggles can be problematic. oh beer goggles! i could tell some stories...

haha, do.

reading what i see you post every day, it would seem to me that you're more "buddies". which is nice. no rush you know?

one of these days though, you'll be stricken by lightning and then ouch! oh man...

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ps-- the stories-- no way, ha ha. too embarrassing!

Well you will find what you really want. It has taken me this while to know what I want.

!@#$%!: yeah, i know; not in this case.

synth: i think you have a deeply rooted fear for a lot of things and you're trying to avoid it the most you can.

schizo: hmm...yeah, you'll meet more people; that awkward friends thing is awwwwwful, let me know if you find an answer for it.

every-e you are absolutely right, I do have a fear of a lot of things. Always on the run, that is why I am starting to confront them, slowly but I am getting there.

i seem to specialize in the awkwrd friends thing. but i guess that's what happens when 90% of your friends have balls.

these guys?

The one holding the ball is cute.

nah. there's a few cuties in there, though.

dude, let me give you some advice: yes, you need to confront a lot of stuff and getting better etc. but for that, you need to at least be functional and mostly calm in life, if you're not this, things can only get more complicated; that way, things will seem clearer, tackle the problems that really fuck with your daily life the most, the ones that slow you down, scare and depress you, and then work on the more complicated ones.

just so you wake up and feel ok.

wait, you feel horrible because you fucked some new dude behind your friends-with-benefits ex... and that is "doing good"?

makes no sense. whatsoever.

schizo has a nominative boyfriend.

you'll find someone who'll make you feel passionated.

synth: doesn't feeling guilty of cheating someone defeat the purpose of the concept of friends with benefits?

Yeah every-e that is why I have been going to therapy for it.

oh. you said "friends with balls". :p

anyway my bet is that columbia will be the big shock.

get ready! i mean it. it's going to be quite a rollercoaster, and you can't be naive or you might get hurt.

I don't know how to explain this right !@#$%!.

there's no right way to explain it because it's a fucked situation, that's why you feel horrible, cos it's wrong.

if you were not into the ex-boy you should have had the balls to put some distance between he and you. it's that simple. now you're both getting hurt with interest. in all financial matters, including the economy of pain, it's always best to pay cash, and not in endless, grueling installments.

you're betting right. my problem's always been that i'm too naive. i've recognized it but i can't think of anything i can really do to be less that way.

read jane austen, of course.
oh and avoid frat parties and drinks of unknown origin. date rape sucks.

oh, another good one:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0100142/

I could never get into soccer, the only sport I ever got into was Tennis.