Hello.

god, there's close to no gigs in holland in august (yeah i'm back in holland next month)... dino is playing on the same day as !!! so i dont know which one to see, but im guessing its going to be dino afterall.

damnit, we keep missing eachother.

the only good shows here in august are all hours away. hopefully i'll be making two of them (the bill for both is against me!/gaslight anthem/two gallants) but who knows.

ANyone alive?

i guess. how are you?

Good, doing better. I am like a stock market, up and down I go. HAHAHA. No no I am fine.

haha, nice. i'm just tired and hungry tonight.

I am in pain, the dentist pulled a teeth.

ahh! did you get some painkillers?

my wisdom teeth are coming in. it's a bitch.

I have vicodin, I should get addicted to it, yes that is what I should do.

I wonder if I should Major in Journalism, since it encompasses what I like to do, which is write.

i'm thinking of doubling in creative writing/sociology. but journalism- go for it! i still would like to one day be a music journalist but now i think i would prefer something in the field of being a manager for a band or just being a musician.

I am thinking of Journalism with a minor in photojournalism.

i really need to get into actual photography. i stopped keeping journals as a last resort to finally get a hold of myself but i'm more or less now stripped of a way to document everything. i just take shitty myspace photos of myself half-smiling.

but that's an awesome major/minor. i go between sociology and international relations, marketing, and history as my second course of study. i used to think computer science was it but it's just too cold for me. i need warmth in a subject.

I actually have a journal, they are so self-absorbed thoughts, but what journal isn't right? I am going through some change right now, but I don't know what, really. Photography can be fun, if you have the tenacity to learn it.

hah, true. i was just really tired of reading back on my thoughts. i sounded like i was half-heartedly trying to rip off douglas coupland's writing style.

i'm in some sort of mindset change. i don't think anybody knows.

the community college has a class i might sign up for. i get ideas for photos all the time and have a camera in mind at best buy (even though my cash well is dry). my small digital just doesn't cut it.. i need a nice one i can care about.

Yeah, get a camera, I might do that some photoshoots in late august after summer school. I want to take some art classes, I have so much frustration, that I need to vent. Oh but let's not talk about that. Yeah, I think change is good, we all need it.

change takes a while to sink in for me (i'm a stubborn asperger) but i look forward to it.

True, I need a change in something, cause I am tired of being a bitter person. Ah but I am stubborn too, but whatever. I am looking foward to some change. Well Jade I have to go, and sleep. Later.

i do too. night :)