How are you doing?
 

seriously.

Bored, need a smoke, want to leave, tired of waiting.
You?

Srsly?

Grand. Just grand. :rolleyes:

I've been way too busy lately, and am going to be. After this weekend though, I should have some smooth sailing until...late April early may.

just finished school for the day. smoking and about to eat. in short, peachy.

sleepy, i need to get things done but i haven't, a bit bored.

The only thing that is important to me at the moment is my keyboard. I don't even want to play my guitar.

Fairly bored and possibly trapped because of an approaching snowfall of 4-7 inches.

I'm always doing pretty shitty. I always feel somewhat unhappy. Have to go to work in an hour and a half. I actually really enjoy 3rd shift, and my job is really really easy (I just stock shelves and get $10 an hour.. not great money but it allows me to do the things I need to do). Kind of feeling anxious, I'm going to Florida next week for about 4 days, so you all won't see me on here at all from next Thursday to next Monday. Boo hoo, right? I hate flying. Hmm.. I'm not so concerned about not being able to get online or whatever, because I'm not online that much anyway, my biggest problem is that I won't have my ukulele or my electric guitar in front of me for all those days. Depressing.

waiting for B:30 so we can go see Built to Spill.

translation: peachy.

you?

waiting for B:30 so we can go see built to spill.

translation: annoyed and cranky

you?

youre alll FAAAGS

regnmeqjrngqoleg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Caps Lock: On

RTSFHG

if you'd really like to know, not very well.

care mode: on

What's up??

She says it helps with the lights out
Her rabid glow is like braille to the night
She swears I'm a slave to the details
But if your life is such a big joke why should I care?

The clock is set for nine but you know you're gonna make it eight
So that you two can take some time teach each other to reciprocate

She feels that my sentimental side should be held with kids gloves
But she doesn't know that I left my urge in the icebox
She swears I'm just prey for the female
Well then hook me up and throw me baby cakes cause I like to get hooked

The clock is set for nine but you know you're gonna make it eight
All the people that you've loved they're all bound to leave some keepsakes
I've been swinging all the time think it's time I learned your way
I picture you and me together in the jungle it will be ok

I'll bring you when my lifeboat sails through the night
That is supposing that you don't sleep tonight

It's like learning a new language
Helps me catch up on my mime
If you don't bring up those lonely parts
This could be a good time
It's like learning a new language

You come here to me
We'll collect those lonely parts and set them down
You come here to me...

She says brief things her love's a pony
My love's subliminal

She says brief things her love's a pony
My love's subliminal

I'm doing pretty meh. I'm kind of drunk right now. I'm watching Requiem for a Dream and thinking about my life. I hate being so reflective.

my mental health is not doing very well today.

listening to chet baker
drinking my last glass of wine
good stuff
life is good


waiting is lame
don't wait

come to the black lips show with me @ bowery
it'll be fun!
we'll get wankered on patron and have a blast

my lungs hurt like fuck... but other nthat i;m greT ... BEEN chain smoking dunhill reds and puffin too much trees all day.

I don't think the chain smoking isn't part of your lungs hurting? :rolleyes:

i'm sayin... btw i told this 20 yr old chick at the bar just now i was 24. *(it's the kind of place 20 yr olds can drink... but thre's also other oldsters like me playing chess in the corner) she totally bought it... but then i told her my real age... why do i always have to be the "nice guy?"/... oh well... she started holding hands with the i guess her guy after i was talking to her fer a whil;e/,... her name was giselle from puerto rico. nice....

sorry to hear that... hope yr feeling better soon.:(

Thank god it wasn't another child.

eww the black lips
crypto if youre going to boris tuesday....if i actually feel like going. i don't want to go anywhere

how's that? extreme onset of menopause?

So you are saying your tubes are tied?

no i meant early, as in youre not old at all
that backfired

oh you got your tubes tied.
i would love to be sterilized because i know for sure that i never want any kids, ever, but they would never do it. i would get denied.

i have 3 cute little nieces to play with when we visit. i'm too irresponsible to have a kid of my own, i'd rather just be the "cool aunt".

hold of on your tubal ligations. who knows where you'll be when you're 30-- or 40. or if technology keeps progressing, even 60...

Don't know really kinda mixed up right now I'm angry, tierd, hungry, & wanting a womans company...

fuck, i'm going to be in chicago on tuesday.
i won't be in nyc until thursday.

and ewww???
black lips are killer
what's your prob?

i don't like them. is that not allowed?
still not doing well. i went to bed at 3 AM and i literally have not seen the daylight. i got up at 6.30 PM.
no, i'm dead serious. i do not want children. i have held onto this viewpoint staunchly since the age of 8, i think i've made my fucking mind up.

my doctor talked me into an IUD. it mostly makes you period-free (although you still have other symptoms) and it's supposedly even more effective than tubal ligation. it's implanted in your uterus and NOTHING can happen in your uterus if something is already in there. although highly highly highly unlikely, something could still happen with tubal ligation. and with an IUD, you can always take it out. little to no hormones and it's lasts 5 to 8 years depending on which type you get. and they're obviously much safer than they were 30 years ago when they had all the troubles.

just putting that out there.

wikipedia says it will make your periods heavier and more uncomfortable.

until i read that you had me sold.

yeah cos you know your future already.

i have this friend, used to be my teacher, when she was 17 she went to the gynecologist begging for a hysterectomy.

she lived her life etc. never wanting children, got divorced, then met this guy she was nuts about-- and started thinking differently-- i think her biological clock kicked in, or maybe it was being with this guy that changed her mind. then the guy (now husband) got a terminal disease & she wanted to have his son but that didnt work out.

years later (in her early 40s) she met another dude got pregnant & conceived a kid she's nuts about. she NO WAI wanted this earlier but now wouldnt trade her life.

now im not saying that you SHOULD want children or will EVER want them.

only that you'd better be absolutely sure before you make such a final decision in your life. better to keep your options open, you never know what's around the corner.

(and that's why i don't have any tattoos-- once it's there, you can't scrub it out).

and before you tell me you know everything-- your 17 for fucks sakes. you're unfinished.