My Life is Meaningless...
 

I feel nothing, really nothing. I feel I am walking without anything to look foward to. I feel so existential, god am I bored with life.

You gotta give it meaning then! Learn to play a musical instrument, get a job, write a book.. the possibilities are endless.

Word. Put it to good use! Find a man, go downtown and meet people, express yrself

yeh there is heaps that you have not experienced
go hitch hike across your country and not tell anyone where you are untill a few months when your settled in somewhere.

No one goes Downtown L.A. I met several people, and I get annoyed by them. I don't like people, they annoy me.

I have tried giving it meaning, but somehow I feel my efforts fruitless.

If this were face-to-face interaction we'd be on a bus already.

I feel you with the people thing. I barely like anyone myself and try to avoid everyone for the most part. There's still noise shows that I go to and I meet plenty of people I like, you just have to give it effort and take time to look for similarities. Do you think there's a source that's making you feel this way?

Well I have been battling depression. I try to meet people, but I just get annoyed by them, everyone.

Danny if we were face to face in california, we would be in a car, on the 405 bumper to bumper.

change your life style

Yeah, stop being so gay.

If I wasn't one of those queers who would get offended because that word is thrown around without any thought, I would be very pissed. But this made me laugh, yes it did.

I tried to rep you, Lux (I still chuckle at the term gaywad. It was so perfect when you used it).

Synth: I don't know what to tell you. It seems like do need a change though.

Be a philanthropist.

nomowish, I should be a psychiatrist.

Alex- Yeah I do think I need a change in something.

i hear you.

Exactly! That is what existentialism is about. Not about wondering around thinking about how meaningless everything is, but to realize that you give things meaning.

once in a while i have a day or a few , totally out of the blue , where everythign i encounter seems so totally relevant to the themes rolling around in my head in the time surrounding...once ive begun to notice patterns emerging and seeing the relevance of everythign to eachother , then all is connected . the encounters themselves and the little things rolling around in my head become big slaps and punches to my psyche...much more seems significant and worth my attention . im saying that whenever the world looks like it has some sort of order to it when ive been used to being lost in chaos , i feel connected to the world and myself more so and that gives me meaning . from there, what my goal is to keep making little goals here and there according to whatever patterns and themes im recognizing in what basically becomes my own private myth of a life . myth is a fancy word - i dont have a fancy life . im quite boring . but sometimes theres a spark .

its not like every day is like this . im often pathetically despondent . but then ill have a stretch of time like this and its like a whole recharge and reset on the mind . everything has a cycle .

also , i think its silly to say to go out and meet people to a person that is usually depressed . being with company just for the sake of having people around is crap . coming across the RIGHT person/people at the RIGHT time however can be wonderful..........but you have to kinda be open to that , and probably should at least leave the house once or twice for it to occur =P

Just say fuck it all and take a vacation, go on a road trip, or something...
It worked for me.
Some friends and I went to paris a week ago, it was nice to get away from it all for a couple of days.
I'll be celebrating my birthday there next month.
I must say that i'm looking forward to spending it alone with the company of some random strangers.

Do some volunteering and see how other people struggle with much less than you have. That way the meaning of life will become much clearer. Posting less about your personal problems on internet forums might help too. After all, you can't expect complete strangers to care THAT much.

I know, Oh I was just venting. I have been thinking about that though, volunteering.