if you love someone from yr past
 

but in reality there couldn't be any longevity to a relationship, due to the way you both are, not wanting to be tied down or held up.. and most likely they dont feel the way they seemed to feel about you in the past..

its just a weird feeling. I've missed her for months and when I finally see her its just so unfulfilling. because I still love her. it doesnt make me sad. Although I cried on the way home a little, Im not sure why(well it was because I was listening to the cure thinking about her), I think it was just overwhelming.

her hair had grown a bit, she looked healthy. new dress, same black crazy japanese converse. tired but well. i dont know. I worry because she said she went back home north for a while. north = drugs, wel, drug town.

she has a boyfriend up there or something. but she seemed pretty close with one of the housemates too. but thats how she's always been. sweet soul.


and I just still love her so much. its bizarre. I miss being as close to her as I used to be.

It's a mixture of wanting to try and woo her, get close again . But knowing it would never work out in reality.

its better to let go if you know it cant work. dont try and push for something that ultimatly could destroy you.

this is true.

but she is still an amazing wonderful person and I would love to keep in contact with her for that reason. and most likely will. but I think that.. I'll always end up feeling affection toward her when I see her.

I'm sure I just miss her far too much and Im whining because it hurts.

If I'm not mistaken, you're the first lady to openly talk about your love for another women on this forum. That's hot. :p

Rest assured that the love of your life is out there... somewhere.

Edit: I still have a soft spot for everyone I've loved in the past.

What size is yours?

Bragging about my size, would only confirm how small it really is.
Still interested?

Don't fake naivety with me, Tokolosh. You know what I'm talking about.

I know what yuou (pork) are talking about. To phoenix, sometimes feeling close to a person you love(d) is far worse than letting her go. If you don't necessarily share the same "environment" (how the hell do you say that in proper english?) I'd vote for --- try to keep the distance.
Can't articulate better.

Oh sorry. My mistake. I'm a size 8,5... shoes that is.

i have a 7 inch dick. no big deal.

anyway, my ex recently started writing me.. after 5 years of not writing me.. i realized why she's probably the best girl ever.. and she has told other people she wants to be with me.. we're both too shy to let each other know our real feelings, plus she's married and i have a girlfriend.. so i feel bad about the whole thing.. but at least i'm completely honest with my girlfriend.. she's not honest with her husband... the whole situation is shitty..

fucking firefox ate my last response.


I can't help you with any authority here. I've moved around too often to ever see anybody from my past.

I once got enganged to a girl that was a "redo" but it fell apart after having to live with her mother (the sex dried up and I couldn't be having that). I still love her in a weird sort of way though.

I hear that she's married and has kids. she lives somewhere near the texas / oklahoma border but I doubt I'll ever talk to her again.

hell, I couldn't get YOU to oklahoma, why would I expect anybody else to???

PS: I think I want to move to drug-town.

Im visiting okc as soon as I can get there without setting foot on a plane.

that's bullshit and we both know it.

besides, I don't blame you. I wouldn't want to come here either.

I told you, I'm moving to drug-town first chance I get. it sounds like fun.

haha.

my life is weird atm. I've learned from the past to not discuss a lot of my personal things on forums but, Im also dating a guy at the moment so that adds to my feelings of confusion that I cant really ever see anything happening with her. I dunno. I miss how we were.

we lived in the same house. worked at the same place. slept in the same bed sometimes. shared spiritual times and loveyness. each had our own seperate lives or relationships but also a very close one together.

I moved out on a count of both my own potential guy, and the fact the guy she was dating was a jealous fuck. I'd had stuff thrown at me. and he used to get really mad when we'd get drunk and make out and take clothes off in the loungeroom.

ffs dont guys dream of that?
anywya.

yearning for the past is evil!

its not that great. ahha. I gotta go,. but ill call you!!

sounds like a plan.

Good question.
I'm not really the jealous type, but I'm sure there are people who can't stand seeing their partner gripping someone of the same or opposite sex.
It's also apparent that her boyfriend isn't really interested in threesomes. He greedily wants her for himself.

I think she means the fact that despite her being naked on top of him, he still says "not now, I'm tired".

he's a panty stealing puss though. what can I say??

(:p )