Songs-> how you feel.
 

At this moment, can you think of any songs that seem to know exactly what yr going through or feeling?
I'm making this thread because I was reading Xiu Xiu lyrics (common practise in dmeloncholic moods of mine) and I read Bunny Gamer's lyrics. It's disgusting how much it seems to be written in my exact perspective... ie, I am pretty much in love with this girl, and I thought she liked me too, but it turns out she doesn't, and she was sort of hinting towards liking me... then she told me she doesn't and does not want a relationship... fuck... so right now I feel like utter shit, barely know what to think, say, do...

It feels retarded, I want you to like me
Will you be there tonight?
Do you mean it when you say what you say?
Fixing up my hair,
I want to impress you
Today and everyday,
Okay, okay okay, okay

So what do you want?
I want to be careless too
So much waiting, so much sitting alone
When you say what you say,
It's not what I thought, it's really nothing at all
I'm not who you want,
Alright, alright alright, alright

Bunny gamer, stand up, bunny gamer, Where have you been all of my life?
Bunny gamer, take me with you,
Okay, okay okay, okay
Bunny gamer, sit down, bunny gamer,
Where have you been all night?
Bunny gamer, leave me alone,
Alright, alright alright, alright

I don't like The Smashing Pumpkins that much anymore but this song stays fantastic.

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
Now you know
Where I've been
As you sleep
Torn I am
Weighted down
Patiently
Worn as hope

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And through it all
Into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
Far below
The creatures scream
Stranglehold
A god machine
Begging to
Tear us out
Born of love

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just the tears inside your head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And through it all
Into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough
You know I'm not dead

We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze
Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway
But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every COG
The fickle fascination of an everlasting god
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
Forever waiting on cruel death
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living for myself
Forever waiting...
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Artists Only - Talking Heads

Xiu Xiu - Hives Hives.

I don't have HIV but that song makes me cry. I couldn't stop tearing up when they played it live. The kind of horror of being gay and being very seceptable to HIV and the wanting to die that goes along with being gay and stuff hits me very very close to home.

les savy fav- yawn yawn yawn

" take deep breaths to wait sweet seconds
the late day beckons
the late day beckons
and if you save it it'll slip away
spend seven nights by saturday
yawn yawn yawn
we're all but gone
if we get lucky
we'll be dead by dawn "

there are times when i go running.. and all i can think while i'm doing it is how afraid i am of there being one night where i will just be running and running and be gone. not gone as in.. hit by a car, or something, but it's hard to explain.

God, you lucky bastard. Hearing Hives Hives makes me utterly devastated... many XX songs do. I have also been feeling really shitty lately and don't really want to live right now...

steve- i feel the same.

:(
I wish I had no emotions right now. God, I wish it was last week more than anything in the world, actually.

i really wish it was last school year. this year's been ok, in some areas (band, mostly, and my gymnastics getting in gear), but yeah. no emotions would be nice.

i just put on bunny gamer. god. i feel really alive listening to it. i don't know why.

...right now Bunny Gamer would be the first song to drive me to tears for a while...

one song that always makes me smile when i feel horrible is "jump". for reals. crank some halen, my dear friend.

This year has been good up until this week, although I'm very glad to have met this girl, as much as I hate it right now... She's such an awesome person...

aahaha, no way man. I believe it was Bob Dylan once said "van Halen can lick my fucking nuts, bro."

i said this to every-e earlier: you never know how things work out.

this year was going really well until my grandma passed. it's been nearly two months (sep 9) and i doubt i'll really get over it anytime soon.

no way! "jump" is one of the best motherfucking songs ever.

1) I wish you could sometimes, so hard...

2) That's a bummer man... my situation isn't that drastic... just problems with love and all that suck ass...

3) I beg to differ! C'moooon!

i do too. i'm really afraid of how this year and next will play out.

i don't know, love is pretty drastic. i have a few problems in that area myself.

as do i! it's LEET.

Yes.. I have a few minor worries, but mainly I'm just shaken up by this whole stupid fucking mess. It isn't even that bad, you know? Just... I honestly feel like I am in love with this human, which I have never really felt or thought before... and she kinda like... lead me on, but I suppose it didn't mean as much as I thought.. "just friends" is the worst phrase ever invented...

I eagerly await the day I forget about this...

hmm, yeah.

i'm sorry i don't really know what to say. but that's lame, the leading on. people need to say/act what and how they damn well mean to.

Agreed. (it's cool, I'm done).

My little crew was really pissed-off at this one dude in the crew... he ditched us at lunch a few times to go smoke pot... he showed up for the show (mentioned in..the SY thread a second ago I think) and everytihng was like.. back to it's cool, normal self. At least something's alright.

my little crew is interesting. i just sit with my closer friends and a few of their friends in the band room, while the group of girls that hate me and are friends with some of my friends sit across the room. it's so weird. they talk about me and pretend i don't notice.