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Originally Posted by atsonicpark

I've just watched every movie that's ever interested me, heard every band, read every book, taken every drug, played every video game, done every sex-act, etc... Nothing has really ever made me happy -- well, a few things, certainly -- but I just feel like I've done so much so quickly and there's just nothing left to look forward to. I mean, there's going to be some cool shit I'll find out from now until the final days.. but not much... the past year, besides listening to techno and electroacoustic improv, I've sat silently in my room for the most part.

the thing with happiness is that it's an internal emotional state, not something you "get" from something else, e.g. "every sex act" can satisfy your curiosity and bring you pleasure but not necessarily make you happy. i mean you can be pretty happy sometimes by sitting down doing absolutely nothing. yes, with no drugs, drinks, or anything.

my point is that maybe it's well worth it to explore what the fuck is this happiness bullshit i'm talking about before you decide to call it quits. and no, you don't get there by seeking more kicks or accumulating experiences. you get it by working through the emotional bullcrap that was dished out to you since your childhood. yeah, i know this sounds like "deep thoughts" but shit can fuck you up. it can also be cured.