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psych meds cut down the frequency and intensity of constant doubt shadowing every thought so that i was able to gather the focus and confidence to make a major life change that had been pending for a couple years. the other consequence was that i was able to be all around a bit more productive. i lost a bunch of weight and have stabilized at a pretty decent one.
i am aware that the underlying brain puzzles and patterns that would result in the doubt, endlessly self-deprecating generalizations and overall tunnel vision of death are not "fixed". you cant erase those. but im aware of some of them and am working on that. its still hard. i still have to figure out what the hell to do with myself. but i dont plan on stopping my medication in the near or far future, considering what i was before, and im okay with that.
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