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I just woke up to Day 5 smoke-free. Day 2 was harder than day 1, but I have to say, this is a lot easier than I thought it would be. I'm not sure why this is so, and I'm waiting for it to really start sucking, but so far I seem to have the upper hand. I'm as shocked as anyone.
Some observations:
--Everyone's path is different. What works for me might not for others. My secret? A bit of pot, tons of food, breathing exercises and repeating over and over, "I am not a smoker. I don't smoke." But I can see how this could be a recipe for failure for someone else.
So if Evolghost has fallen, no shame. It's just that the right method has yet to be discovered.
--A history of depression, anxiety and mild psychosis has been a great help. There's no withdrawal symptom that has been at all surprising. "Yeah, yeah. Been there. Felt that. What else you got? Because right now you're boring me."
--A craving is an event. It has a beginning, middle and end. It's not a permanent state of being. And they really don't last very long.
--Coffee is a major trigger. Need to cut down. That'll suck a lot. Man, I love coffee. Mornings in general are the most difficult part of the day.
--Reading is a trigger! That caught me off guard. But now that I think about it, I always used to read with an ashtray, lighter, and some cigs by my side. Reading makes me want to smoke more than driving does. Crazy.
--I'm getting too confident, and I need to watch out for the "Well, I got this under control, so I can have just one" type of thinking.
But then, I'm not a smoker. I do not smoke. So why would I even want one?
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