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i think i am crasy too.i used to be a nice ,soft,positive person but now i feel bad,depressive,guilty,sad and mentally ill.i guess i always was strange but now i am really fucked up. i was on 6 different shools but lasy and from 16 years on i never had friends so that i could not learn how to behave in society.yes i am retarded but now i have the idea to work hard to work it out. i don t want to go to the doctor and i don t want to take medicaments.
today i feel like everybody 's ill but like they all don 't want to know
it really sucks that noone wants to hear me talk, sometimes i wish for death,for them or me but i know it's stupid.i think no psychologist can help me and no drug can cure me.i have to admit that i have done everything wrong and that now chances are gone for a decent life,so the only thing that is left for me is to survive.when i am 70 i may die from cancer,but the real problem is what do i do for the next 46 years because i don't want to work in society i want to paint and be an artist even if non -talented.i love colours but i apply them in a way that makes people feel sick.
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