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teenage rites of passages?
just to be clear i don't feel that much different than when i was like 15 on, except that i'm caring less about people and what they think...also bear with me as most of the music and drinking and getting band t-shirts and buying bootlegs tapes of death metal and all those other things i began before i hit the teens.
-my bar mitzvah party, bunch of kids were there and was one of the few parties i've actually had fun, then sneaking to the bathroom towards the end to light up a cigarrette, i mean, it was huge. the next day, i ran into a friend and his family were having a big super bowl party, so i go with them and me and another friend just went up to the cooler and grabbed a beer, all casual, and drank it outside, feeling mellow and cool.
-when i was fourteen, i began doing a list of albums as they were released and i also began reviewing every single album as i was getting them and storing them, little did i know...
-my first show, opening a showcase on the place i was learning guitar, me and some dudes rocked to sabbath's paranoid in front of every kids' parents, it was great!!!
-recording for the first time into a boombox, i still swear it's better than harry pussy, i wish i had a copy of the next session.
-getting pantera's the great southern trend kill tape the day it came out and placing my order for metallica's load.
-picking up metallica's load tape and thinking it was a piece of crap (little did i know...)
-listening to the radio, to specific programs playing "alternative" (where i first heard the fall and dead kennedys) and metal and taping those shows, also listening to the weekly show where they played a new album whole as they were being released. i miss the radio.
-going to see morbid angel at a bad part of town in a wrestling (very small) arena with people twice as big and older than us and ending up in one of the best shows ever.
-the first time i walked out of a party and wandered on the streets.
-finding out about punk, about what it stood for, about what these bands sounded like and for saving me.
-going to israel, doing the army thing for a week, and being there when two terrorist attacks happened on places i had been mere days before.
-discovering i was in love.
-forming my first real band, rehearsing, recording and doing everything on our own while having a blast pretty much the whole time while the other idiots at school were out passing out and crashing their cars.
-sneaking to the parking lot in school to smoke with people.
-when my english teacher took a poem i did for an assignment and submitted it to a literary journal (she eventually nicked it).
-driving by school on graduation night and screaming FUCK YOU!!!! out of the speeding car.
-staying up all night around a bonfire with the people i grew up with and just being there.
-telling someone "i love you" for the first time to a girl.
-not getting my feelings reciprocated by that same girl at that very moment.
-thrashing the stage at a battle of the bands, ending with the drummer throwing a stick straight to a judge.
-finding a pirate copy of that minor threat video and watching it.
-finding damaged on a big record store.
lots more. screw culture, i guess i've been aware but all i got was so manufactured and had so much expectation that it lead nowhere basically. i remember the unabomber, the chupacabras (i think i even wrote a song about it), jeffrey dahmer and 9/11 (i was 19), a lot of stuff but they didn't affected me being a teenager.
oh yeah, and the whole episode 1 crap; finally getting to the theater and walking out saying "what is this crap?!"
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