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Umm. I hug people a lot. I can be oblivious to what other people consider appropriate behavior. I go a bit off sometimes and sometimes I don't talk to people for weeks. I can be super-critical of myself (and, I think, secretly, of everybody else too.) But I try really hard to be nice and fair and not judgemental. But I think sometimes i make people nervous. I'm shy.. but also not shy. At all. (I find it difficult to determine what's appropriate behavior sometimes, so I might get shy about weird things, stupid everyday things, but then be totally un-shy during moments when everybody else is terrified.) I'm in therapy. My therapist says I'm deeply conflicted. My little brother thinks I'm hilarious. My Mum worries about me terribly. My other brother hates me. My Dad doesn't have a clue. My first boyfriend said I was hard to figure out. A teacher at school told me that I looked at her funny all the time. My dearest friend said her first impression of me (when we were 11) was that I was the coolest person she'd ever met.
The most insightful thing I can say about myself is that I have observed over the years that I have very little perspective on myself. Try as I might, I have no idea what people think of me or see when they look at me. I'd forget what I looked like in a room full of mirrors.
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