[phoenix]

but in reality there couldn't be any longevity to a relationship, due to the way you both are, not wanting to be tied down or held up.. and most likely they dont feel the way they seemed to feel about you in the past..

its just a weird feeling. I've missed her for months and when I finally see her its just so unfulfilling. because I still love her. it doesnt make me sad. Although I cried on the way home a little, Im not sure why(well it was because I was listening to the cure thinking about her), I think it was just overwhelming.

her hair had grown a bit, she looked healthy. new dress, same black crazy japanese converse. tired but well. i dont know. I worry because she said she went back home north for a while. north = drugs, wel, drug town.

she has a boyfriend up there or something. but she seemed pretty close with one of the housemates too. but thats how she's always been. sweet soul.


and I just still love her so much. its bizarre. I miss being as close to her as I used to be.