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thanks guys for the kind words, i needed to tell someone (like !@#$% suggested) and started by talking with you.
i might have done something good or behaved well or whatever; but i still feel like i should do something more...i kinda felt the same protective nature i felt when we were going out and i felt a deep concern for her. i still have feelings for her because she was my girlfriend who a loved a lot, so it's difficult not to feel this. and yeah, the whole cheating and boyfriend thing got out of the way right now since this is something serious, it feels shallow and banal to think about her cheating on me and knowing who's her boyfriend and stuff. it does feel dumb to be concerned about stuff like that, not to mentioned i'm already over that for a long time now (which wasn't easy)
i think you guys have a point about this turning into a love and sex situation, she seeked for me and has apologized several times for the way she treated me and the way we broke up, she also mentioned several times that she was a changed person and that she now views people in a different way, also that she now really appreciate people more now. when she dropped me home she told me that she loved me and i told her i did too (because i will always love her since she was/is very important to me and out of sympathy too). so chances are she wants me back. she also told me she was finally breaking up with her boyfriend.
i couldn't sleep last night thinking about the situation and woke thinking what !@#$% also said, that it's not my drama and that there should be a line of involvement not to be crossed, it's true, i just hoped i came into the board earlier to read it.
i'll go as i see and try to have some distant perspective and see what's up, while still try to be as much support for her as possible.
thanks a lot for reading and for giving me some of your words. that's another reason why this is my favorite place on the internet!
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