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Originally Posted by DeadDiscoDildo
I dunno, I've already beat a dead horse regarding this. She says she 'can't get back' to how it was.
& I can't just understand how someone can just not feel it anymore when it was so good...but she's probably self-sabotaged all her relationships.
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Sounds exactly like my last ex, who I described above. Heh. She cheated on me with a guy online who she admitted was "worse" than me because she said that I was too good to her and she couldn't return her love as much and it made her feel inferior. She was (and still is) crazy in love with me but she found some shitty temporary replacement that she admits to everyone isn't some amazing thing but she keeps leading this other guy on and he's making marriage plans after a few months of online dating bullshit, meanwhile she tells me she wants to marry me but she "can't" at this point in her life, and she moved away, temporarily, but still talks to me and is obviously still in love with me which makes things even more difficult, meanwhile saying she's going to "move on" so I give her plenty of space and then just as quickly she says "wait. no. I don't want to lose you." while still putting on this facade for this guy so he doesn't kill himself because he's a 25 year old virgin and basically this huge loser and just happens to be the only other guy in history to show her any attention so she thinks she has something special when she has only seem him maybe 6 times in her entire life and she's just basically living this stupid fucking facade and no one knows how she really is, except me, and I have to see all sides of it, and she even had sex with me about a million times while this guy thought they were dating, and she actually STILL insists (not just to me, again) they're not "together" in a boyfriend/girlfriend way but he's thought they were dating for like 4 months now and it's all just hilarious, and what do I really say to any of that stuff? And yeah Deaddisco, they are afraid to live real lives, my ex in particular is in debt BIG TIME and basically moved 1500 miles to get away from her mom, and sew all the time, and she can't find a job, and she's basically just so extremely immature and makes everything impossible for herself when I have been saving up for years for us to have a good future together. So ,she urged me to go see other people since she is "seeing other people" (but not in a romantic way) so I'm trying to move on, a bit, but I know we still love each other, and I know she's going to end up back here eventually, so it's kinda ridiculous, because even if she doesn't move back for a year, there's no way I'm NOT going to feel like I love her in a year from now -- we were together nearly 7 years! I've loved her for like ELEVEN YEARS! Though she says if we get back together again it'll be for good, which I like, but at the same time, it's all just sorta fucking ridiculous and the fact that she is leading this guy on and still doesn't have any concept of closure with me is kinda retarded. Oh well, she'll learn, I just hope she does soon, because I don't want to sabotage what could be a decent relationship with someone else either.