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Originally Posted by SONIC GAIL

I cannot get medical attention. I am a mom and have a good job I am scared to tarnish my record. I am a resposible parent. I am a fuctional junkie. The worst kind. I take shit so I can clean more, work more, create more , play more. I don't take them to just pass out and ignore my responsibility.

I realize now I definitly got a problem. I am trying to get over it without intervention. I have definitly improved from where I was. I am ashamed of myself for being like this. I wish I was just happy sober like most people are.

i think shame is the core of addictive behavior, but holy ass, i didn't know this about you, explains a lot, in a way, but seriously, you'd rather destroy your liver than tarnish your record? fuck the record! save your liver. sweet sweet liver, it's so good to me, i wouldn't fuck him over other people's opinions... but anyway, crap, there are ways to get help discreetly-- as long as you do it outside the insurance system your ass is covered and there are people who will work with you-- you'll say "i can't afford it" but it's definitely cheaper than what you spend on pills.

anyway, best wishes getting out of that fucking mess, but have some love for your fucking liver-- just cuz you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't sweet and cuddly and deserving of a hug.

i eat liver weekly, i know.