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go to the beach. get sunbaked.
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yes, maybe this.
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something that releases endorphins.
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think I already do too much of this.
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you could try meditation.
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I need to try this.
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barring all that, a prescription for klonopin should work like a charm.
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I think that getting high would make me worse. I need to be more grounded, while being less hyper-focused.
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most of all, I'm afraid that my behavior could taint my relationship with the girl I love. I'm a nutjob under normal circumstances, sure, but the self-imposed stress is making me even more so.
I love her, and do not wish to push her away because of my tendency to want to self-destruct or pull away. I'm trying to be the best person that I can be, while recognizing that I still have lots of work.
right...
I'm starting OPERATION:FLOATSLOWER by clocking out of this illusionary job, taking a quick shower and going to best buy to pick of some dvds for a miyazaki marathon.
perhaps tomorrow I'll go to venice.