I'm a worthless piece of shit. Really, I am.

HaydenAsche · 10.16.2006, 03:35 PM

I have no ambition.
I have no drive.
I don't care about anything.

I really want to do something with my life but I'm such a lazy fuck. I never do homework or read for shit and I'm getting terrible grades in my classes. I do nothing but hang out and enjoy my life. Is there something wrong with me?

Seriously, though, if I sit down to start an essay I will be called 10-15 minutes in and I will just leave to go do something. I'm never going to accomplish anything.

This post was completely serious.

static-harmony · 10.16.2006, 03:38 PM

Well, I used to have that in High School as well. Everybody has at one point something that pushes them to be somewhat ambitious into what they want to do with life. For example, I did not want to end up working in a factory, and I really want to move to New York, That motivated me to finish my diploma and trying to get out of here. You just need to look at your sorroundings and figure it out. Ask yourself, do I really want this?

Savage Clone · 10.16.2006, 03:38 PM

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Originally Posted by HaydenAsche

This post was completely serious.

Damn, you are so punk!

HaydenAsche · 10.16.2006, 03:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Savage Clone

Damn, you are so punk!

Completely off.

!@#$%! · 10.16.2006, 03:39 PM

hm, i hope you're not looking for excuses for self-hate.

i mean-- who says that you have to always PERFORM in order to appreciate your own life?

do whatever it is you do and enjoy it. no need to look to external standards to decide if you're going to value yourself or not. life is too short to waste it with self-torture. really.

HaydenAsche · 10.16.2006, 03:40 PM

Oh, I'm not hating myself. I'm just complaining. I really wish I could get stuff done. I just can't bring myself to do shit.

!@#$%! · 10.16.2006, 03:41 PM

not being able to do shit is one thing that does not necessarily equate with being "a worthless piece of shit"

Savage Clone · 10.16.2006, 03:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Kegmama

You are 16, right? Be patient young one. As you grow into an adult, you will be MADE to have ambition and drive and HAVE to care about shit. You have SO much to look forward to.

-Unless you choose to live in an arrested state of childless record-nerd/guitar playing teendom like myself, of course.

I mean, I have reponsibilities and all that, but my "ambitions" are all fairly modest and attainable.

Danny Himself · 10.16.2006, 03:42 PM

I was going to reply with some sort of smart-ass comment, but I realized you're being serious, so I'll be friendly. :]

If you want drive, you need something to drive you. Is getting good grades really important to whatever your dream is? Perhaps you want to shovel shit at a local farm. Of course not! Be good at school! Otherwise you will be shovelling shit at a farm, and Chout will laugh at you.

I have no idea, honestly. Good luck though.

HaydenAsche · 10.16.2006, 03:43 PM

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Originally Posted by !@#$%!

not being able to do shit is one thing that does not necessarily equate with being "a worthless piece of shit"

Well, I don't contribute to society other than the occasional funny comment. I'm just an ass. I wish I was a better person.

I'm so not nice it is sad. I'm not going anywhere.

static-harmony · 10.16.2006, 03:44 PM

Being nice has nothing to do on how far you get in life. You just need some sort of push that is all.

!@#$%! · 10.16.2006, 03:44 PM

you can even have great ambitions and not necessarily hate yourself if you're unable to meet them.

the reward/punishment for good/bad performance can be internalized so that people carry it inside themselves without the need of a master.

i find it ridiculous. but most people are programmed that way.

i once knew a girl who was not very good looking. let's say she was downright homely. the curious thing is that she HATED HERSELF for it. (as if it was her own fault, or if she needed more problems already).

no need to become your own enemy when you don't "perform". really.

nature scene · 10.16.2006, 03:44 PM

well, after high school you have total freedom to choose your own path in life. If you don't find the things that you learn about in school very interesting, try learning about something that they don't teach you in school. Maybe then you can find some ambition.

remember, you shouldn't be taught what to think but you do need to be taught how to think.

!@#$%! · 10.16.2006, 03:52 PM

it's not about highschool or later you fools

it's the internalized psychological mechanism of reward/punishment

mommy yells at you if you break her teapot

so the next time you break something else, you yell at yourself

sick, really.

but that's how most people function and why so many people need antidepressants, antipsychotics, and therapists. most people are not self-nurturing and therefore get into vicious circles of madness every time they fail at something.

but anyway. i need to make myself lunch.

Savage Clone · 10.16.2006, 03:57 PM

Oh, and I would hasten to add this little tidbit:

We are ALL worthless pieces of shit. You know, cosmically.

Whoa, man.

HaydenAsche · 10.16.2006, 04:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Savage Clone

Oh, and I would hasten to add this little tidbit:

We are ALL worthless pieces of shit. You know, cosmically.

Whoa, man.

Deep.

Savage Clone · 10.16.2006, 04:01 PM

Yeah, I knew that would blow your mind.

!@#$%! · 10.16.2006, 04:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Savage Clone

Oh, and I would hasten to add this little tidbit:

We are ALL worthless pieces of shit. You know, cosmically.

Whoa, man.

speak for yourself, kansas

HaydenAsche · 10.16.2006, 04:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Savage Clone

Yeah, I knew that would blow your mind.

It, like, totally tripped me out, ya dig?

Savage Clone · 10.16.2006, 04:02 PM

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Originally Posted by !@#$%!

speak for yourself, kansas

I was speaking of humans, not GODS.

10.16.2006, 03:35 PM	#1
HaydenAsche invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 10,755	I have no ambition. I have no drive. I don't care about anything. I really want to do something with my life but I'm such a lazy fuck. I never do homework or read for shit and I'm getting terrible grades in my classes. I do nothing but hang out and enjoy my life. Is there something wrong with me? Seriously, though, if I sit down to start an essay I will be called 10-15 minutes in and I will just leave to go do something. I'm never going to accomplish anything. This post was completely serious. __________________ rip
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static-harmony invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: outside L.A Posts: 5,156	Well, I used to have that in High School as well. Everybody has at one point something that pushes them to be somewhat ambitious into what they want to do with life. For example, I did not want to end up working in a factory, and I really want to move to New York, That motivated me to finish my diploma and trying to get out of here. You just need to look at your sorroundings and figure it out. Ask yourself, do I really want this? __________________
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10.16.2006, 03:39 PM	#5
!@#$%! invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: mars attacks Posts: 42,581	hm, i hope you're not looking for excuses for self-hate. i mean-- who says that you have to always PERFORM in order to appreciate your own life? do whatever it is you do and enjoy it. no need to look to external standards to decide if you're going to value yourself or not. life is too short to waste it with self-torture. really.
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10.16.2006, 03:40 PM	#6
HaydenAsche invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 10,755	Oh, I'm not hating myself. I'm just complaining. I really wish I could get stuff done. I just can't bring myself to do shit. __________________ rip
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10.16.2006, 03:41 PM	#7
!@#$%! invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: mars attacks Posts: 42,581	not being able to do shit is one thing that does not necessarily equate with being "a worthless piece of shit"
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10.16.2006, 03:42 PM	#9
Danny Himself invito al cielo Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 9,623	I was going to reply with some sort of smart-ass comment, but I realized you're being serious, so I'll be friendly. :] If you want drive, you need something to drive you. Is getting good grades really important to whatever your dream is? Perhaps you want to shovel shit at a local farm. Of course not! Be good at school! Otherwise you will be shovelling shit at a farm, and Chout will laugh at you. I have no idea, honestly. Good luck though.
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10.16.2006, 03:44 PM	#11
static-harmony invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: outside L.A Posts: 5,156	Being nice has nothing to do on how far you get in life. You just need some sort of push that is all. __________________
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10.16.2006, 03:44 PM	#13
nature scene 100% Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: da souf Posts: 671	well, after high school you have total freedom to choose your own path in life. If you don't find the things that you learn about in school very interesting, try learning about something that they don't teach you in school. Maybe then you can find some ambition. remember, you shouldn't be taught what to think but you do need to be taught how to think.
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10.16.2006, 03:52 PM	#14
!@#$%! invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: mars attacks Posts: 42,581	it's not about highschool or later you fools it's the internalized psychological mechanism of reward/punishment mommy yells at you if you break her teapot so the next time you break something else, you yell at yourself sick, really. but that's how most people function and why so many people need antidepressants, antipsychotics, and therapists. most people are not self-nurturing and therefore get into vicious circles of madness every time they fail at something. but anyway. i need to make myself lunch.
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10.16.2006, 03:57 PM	#15
Savage Clone invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 11,290	Oh, and I would hasten to add this little tidbit: We are ALL worthless pieces of shit. You know, cosmically. Whoa, man.
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10.16.2006, 04:01 PM	#17
Savage Clone invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 11,290	Yeah, I knew that would blow your mind.
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