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o rly?
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() rather than Bromazepam Chlordiazepoxide
Cinolazepam
Cloxazolam Clorazepate Diazepam Estazolam Flunitrazepam Flurazepam Flutoprazepam Halazepam Ketazolam Alprazolam Bromazepam Chlordiazepoxide Cinolazepam Clonazepam Cloxazolam Clorazepate Diazepam Estazolam Flunitrazepam Flurazepam Flutoprazepam Halazepam etc. for your little blues and anxiety. can you believe so many of us are diagnosed agoraphobics? in the last 10 years what a boom... But it's incredible how we have been convinced we need all these drugs. We think the mood is cerebral... check you glands (tyroid, surrenals...) first before spending hundreds of dollar for doped chatting with a therapist. I'll be doctor soon, probably neurologist. I'll try not to dope 20yo kids turning them into sleepy shy shy mice. About drug (illegal substances) dependence, I've assisted in the last 4 years to the decay of some "friends of friends". Here (north italy) heroin strikes back. My neighbour died about 5 years ago for an heart attack, he was a 42, single, handsome, addicted to coke financial agent. he died in a hotel, very sad. My mother's cousin, back in 70's, had some problems with heroin, just like most of bored youth of that time. He's clean (or at least, he's fine) now. Lives in Zanzibar and works as a canoe teacher, ha. |
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i'm sorry but i just cannot abide that shit. it may work but i ain't doing it cuz i hate it. haaaaaate it.
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I find it awesome what you're doing shentov.
And the open way you talk about it. Wish you the best. Quote:
It can happen you truly want to support, you know how deep the problem is and you don’t want to cover the shit up, you’re truly ready to face it and lend a hand. But the other pushes you away like : « I’d better keep you away from my shit cause you’re gonna get hurt and you’re gonna suffer… » Does it mean they’re just not ready to face the problem themselves and they feel like they can’t do anything, so they simply prefer to get rid of you ? Some way to stay in denial maybe... Sometimes you just want to support and you truly end up feeling like you’re just bothering and you’re a pain in the arse. |
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then there's the defense mechanism people have. shit like "i can control my addiction". or how everyone who has fucked up parents claims "my parents are alright", or even worse, "my parents are the greatest". or stuff like "i turned out ok after all". that's shit people tell themselves in order to keep themselves together because facing the pain of recognizing the truth would hurt too much. and when that happens without proper channels, people can go crazier than even before. so everyone spreads a little bullshit on the top. it's human nature. that why i so much prefer shrinks than well-intentioned advice-givers. when it comes to dismounting those defenses and "helping" people look at their own bullshit, they know how to do it delicately, carefully, methodically, intelligently, so as not to cause more damage and more retreat into defenseland. and when finally the floodgates of hell are wide open & spewing all the garbage out, they know how to handle it with care. a lot of training goes into it. of course not everyone is as good as competent as they should be, but the odds are way better. as for civilians/friends/family simply prodding people to do something about their shit-- i really don't care if im just bothering and im a pain in the arse-- if i am, ha ha, so be it! i don't give a shit-- i have more important things to do than look good. what i mean is, if i was insecure about the usefulness of what i am proposing, or the pain that people are stuck into, i would have doubts. but because i don't (well there are reservations for everything, but..)-- but because i don't, i can take some shit in return, knowing that it's worth it, you know what i mean? as for my time pestering cankers, i think it's time well spent, she's far from stupid. but anyway, if you as a friend think you can call your friend's bullshit, realize that you can only do it to a point, and it's better to have someone who knows-- without knowledge, and training, you can't get into their brains without getting burned and without fucking them up as well. so there's a boundary there you have to respect. you can't force people. |
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I love the lifeguard picture! Reminds me of when I took swimming lessons in grade school. I remember even back then thinking how beautiful the girl lifeguards looked. Later in junior high it was an achievement to run across the pool deck or something so that you got the whistle and then called over to sit beneath the lifeguard's chair. Thank, mum, may I please have some more?
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i love weed
i think about it at work i think about it on the way home from work i look back at the bong before i leave the house i love weed
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That's probably not healthy.
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chuckles...
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hmm
i enjoy it i love thinking of things to do whilst stoned it brings out the creativity in me as typical as that sounds
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I thought about "getting back into" pot a little while ago. I've thought better of it for this very reason. I would like it too much.
I dislike getting obsessed over things that don't last. Pot goes away. On the other hand, records, DVDs, books, art, even clothes stay with you for a while. They're things that, purchased once, continue for a long time to serve or satisfy you in some way. While I sometimes think I'm addicted to too many material things (see above), I rationalize it with the thought that at least they can be considered longer-term investments. I know, bullshit, right?
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you said it
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nothing lasts, but the stupidity that pot invites lingers for too many weeks afterwards. |
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well, true. It's just that some things are more perishable than others. Pot, drink, food, etc. I mean that given a choice about how I spend what little disposable income I have, I'd rather see it going to things that I feel will last a while.
But yes, that, too. What seems like astonishing insight when you smoke is really stupid in hindsight. I'm also not fond of the idea of filling my lungs with smoke.
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haha yeh the dumb ass feelin after being stoned
i find a good walk in the cold and a cup of tea soon gets rid ofit
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At the same time... I often feel very peaceful and at ease for days after smoking (though I might not if I smoked more often than just once in a while). So maybe there are longer benefits. Still...
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Yes, you're right about that. Definitely. When I sat zazen regularly, I could achieve a similiar sense of peace with the world.
And I don't mean to sound like a jock, because I'm not, but there is something to be said for regular exercise.
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yeah man. no need to have a *cough* mid life *cough* crisis *cough* ![]() btw did you get the links i sent you? |
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Yes, thanks. Looks like burque's not a choice anymore, unfortunately. We're kind of bummed about it. But we're still holding out hope for Denver and Walla Walla. Portland is also now back in the realm of possibilities--her position opened up again there and she applied.
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