[Zombie Robot]

i think im done w/my best friend after like a 12 yr friendship. im a confused mix of devastated & pissed. its quite disheartening.

[automatic bzooty]

i have class in four hours. five hours? no four. i dunno.

that's why i'm going to class, to finally learn math.

fuckin' waste-a time.

[Satan]

i can't sleep and my back HURTS

[Keeping It Simple]

Originally Posted by knox

i have a lot of work to do over the weekend, which means doing work over the weekend. i had a bottle of wine of my own and my head hurts. my stomach is feeling funny and im gonna have shitty pizza for lunch.

You sound like Bridget Jones.

[Satan]

i have a million prescriptions for a million different things but most helpfully percocet for a condition i've had for years that causes chronic pain, i have to watch it though because i have addictive tendencies. i try not to take so many drugs these days. thinking about just saying fuck it and taking shitloads of pills like the old days. i felt better.

[A Thousand Threads]

I have tinnitus since some years now, always could handle it quite well but since a month or so it got fucking bad.
It's hard to concentrate and focus on things for longer than half a minute....
... then comes the fucker in the ear, occupying my brain.

[Satan]

i've had that for years too, it's fucking annoying

[A Thousand Threads]

How did you get rid of it?

[Satan]

oh it's never going away. i listen to music super loud and stand right in front at shows and play guitar at excessive volumes on a regular basis. i'm fucked for life.

[akprodr]

Cymbalta, an antidepressant, seems to be helping with my tinitus.

I also wear earplugs a lot and external hearing protection when vacuuming.
Won't help, but keeps damage from getting worse...

I was just at a concert on Sat and with earplugs, the volume was just about perfect--I can no longer imagine going to concerts without 'em.

[SONIC GAIL]

Originally Posted by Satan

i have a million prescriptions for a million different things but most helpfully percocet for a condition i've had for years that causes chronic pain, i have to watch it though because i have addictive tendencies. i try not to take so many drugs these days. thinking about just saying fuck it and taking shitloads of pills like the old days. i felt better.

Keep yr current attitude. Pain killer addiction can be as bad as heroin. I started taking em when I was in my early twenties and now I am trying to come off of them. I've wasted a decade and drown way too much money into that shit. It is definitly not worth it. Especially with an addictive personality.

[Satan]

yeah i know, i've been there, heroin, pain pills, cocaine, downers, everything. it sucks. it consumes you. i just don't wanna feel like shit and my insurance (YES !@£$@£!@£$@ I HAVE INSURANCE NOW) is paying for it, it's not like i'm going and scoring on the street. i have to take downers or drink to sleep. i have to take painkillers if i want to be able to walk right. it's not about getting wasted anymore, i've done that to death. i just want to feel okay.


/rationale for drug abuse

[SONIC GAIL]

Originally Posted by Satan

yeah i know, i've been there, heroin, pain pills, cocaine, downers, everything. it sucks. it consumes you. i just don't wanna feel like shit and my insurance (YES !@£$@£!@£$@ I HAVE INSURANCE NOW) is paying for it, it's not like i'm going and scoring on the street. i have to take downers or drink to sleep. i have to take painkillers if i want to be able to walk right. it's not about getting wasted anymore, i've done that to death. i just want to feel okay.


/rationale for drug abuse

I gotcha ....I have to take xanax for my anxiety. I just have to monitor closely how many i consume. I will probably never be able to totally be free of them cauise I start hallucinating and hearing shit when I run out. Prozac does minimal to control it. Thats how I am noe I just want to feel like normal people do that is it. New york and yr man being good to you? you seem to have found a bit of happiness. I am happy for you.

[SONIC GAIL]

Satan: never mind I just read you're getting married! Great news I am so happy for you!!!! When u luv him and that is what u want marriage is the best. My Ryan is my best friend and has been for 15 years now. I wish you the best of luck!!!! RED not white.

[Satan]

thank you!!!! i'm super duper excited, he caught me totally off guard because we just got back together recently after being separated for about 8 months (going out for 4-5 years before that). we've been through more shit together than anyone i know, done a lot of wrong to each other, but at the end of the day i will never love anyone like this. i cried almost every day when we were apart even though i got a new boyfriend and we still hung out.

as for the pills, i take downers to sleep, percocet for pain, antidepressants and mood stabilizers for insane bipolar. what a life.

ps i'm actually wearing turquoise but i thought about red. FUCK white. white is for virgins. and i look like shit in white anyway.

[SONIC GAIL]

Originally Posted by Satan

thank you!!!! i'm super duper excited, he caught me totally off guard because we just got back together recently after being separated for about 8 months (going out for 4-5 years before that). we've been through more shit together than anyone i know, done a lot of wrong to each other, but at the end of the day i will never love anyone like this. i cried almost every day when we were apart even though i got a new boyfriend and we still hung out.

as for the pills, i take downers to sleep, percocet for pain, antidepressants and mood stabilizers for insane bipolar. what a life.

ps i'm actually wearing turquoise but i thought about red. FUCK white. white is for virgins. and i look like shit in white anyway.

I wore my moms wedding dress it was hand made from the 70's. WE played my bloody valentine and Santana at the ceremony and alot of other wierd shit. It was quite interesting to the redneck family members.

I know about all that insane shit me and Rayn (especially Ryan) better than being a sheep though I suppose. Anyway i really am happy for you. You are a sweet person and deswerve the best. I fucking love turqouise I have been going through a little stage with it. So beachy and lovely. Nice pick.

[Satan]

i bet that looked totally awesome, all the best vintage is from the 70s. and excellent music selection by the way.
& ahahahaha you might be the first person who ever called me sweet. people think i'm a huge bitch because i act real sarcastic and never hesitate to tell someone to shut the fuck up but i'm secretly extremely emotional and very motherly.
turquoise is my favorite color! with silver shoes. i can't wait.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by Satan

(YES !@£$@£!@£$@ I HAVE INSURANCE NOW)

awesome. congrats.

wait. this is the complaint thread. hmmm....

[Satan]

hey gail you have kiddos right? would you recommend it? we're kinda young but we want a little family.....

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by Satan

hey gail you have kiddos right? would you recommend it? we're kinda young but we want a little family.....

ha ha holy shit. are you the same person that 6 months ago swore she'd never ever ever reproduce?

ah ha ha ha ha ha.

if we had made bets, i'd be collecting money now.

complaint: damn! i didn't put money on this!