[jennthebenn]

My gradual emotional and physical breakdown over a three month period. Doctors gave me a variety of possibilities: migraines, fibromyalgia, lupus, MS. It turned out I was feeling the brunt of untreated panic disorder that had caught up with me.

Every day for three months I woke up feeling a third of a person. I
can't do it justice here, and I don't think I want to. Whenever I think
about that time, I almost stop breathing.

[sonicpixie]

Originally Posted by viewtiful_alan

My friend killing himself in front of me.
I started crying just typing that.

holy shit im so sorry thats so bad there just are no words.
how long ago was this? is anything helping u get over this in any way?

[sonicpixie]

Originally Posted by jennthebenn

My gradual emotional and physical breakdown over a three month period. Doctors gave me a variety of possibilities: migraines, fibromyalgia, lupus, MS. It turned out I was feeling the brunt of untreated panic disorder that had caught up with me.

Every day for three months I woke up feeling a third of a person. I
can't do it justice here, and I don't think I want to. Whenever I think
about that time, I almost stop breathing.

were they able to help u properly once they knew what it was?

[Satan]

good lord.

[FreshChops]

Originally Posted by sonicpixie

thats fucked up! yeah let me know the website if u find it.
he's on a lot of meds now but they dont seem to be helping at all.

Here's that site:
http://www.ssristories.com/index.php

it's all significant, but look towards the middle bottom at all of the "mothers that killed their children", a lot by stabbing too. I don't believe in demons or being possessed in the bible cense, but some of the stuff those meds do is the closest to it.

[edit]
this site is badass. Here's that story I was talking about I heard on the radio, where they were on the scene of a mother murdering her children and witnesses mentioning her taking meds and possibly stopping taking them..... then later, the story was never published..... BECAUSE, it would bring to light the fact that her meds were the leading factor in this heinous murder! I don't know how but the pharmachutical co.'s have a way of chocking the release of any prescription details pertaining to these murders for the press.

http://www.ssristories.com/show.php?item=3319


OJ Simpson was on a double dose of Prozac at the time of Murders (new news to me)

[atsonicpark]

jesus

[sonicpixie]

bloody hell! surely though its difficult to tell if they wouldnt have lost the plot and killed people anyway without the meds? but if the meds are sposed to be helping them and then they end up killing people instead at the very least the meds arent working_____ scary shit anyhowz

[Katy]

December-January 2004/05. Went deeply bonkers and it coincided with the tsunami. Bad times.

My experience with risperidone was also a bad patch. A couple of hours after i first took it I was in the bathroom trying to brush my teeth when suddenly I found couldn't. Everything got heavy, I couldn't hold my toothbrush. I tripped down the stairs, stumbled down the hallway and collapsed on the kitchen floor mumbling "I'm dying" on the way down. Felt like my brain was melting, like gravity was pulling my head through the floor. Really did think I was dying. Maybe having a stroke or something. Not fun.

[FreshChops]

Originally Posted by sonicpixie

bloody hell! surely though its difficult to tell if they wouldnt have lost the plot and killed people anyway without the meds? but if the meds are sposed to be helping them and then they end up killing people instead at the very least the meds arent working_____ scary shit anyhowz

Well, the fact that they go from typically depressed mothers, to unconsciously stabbing their children and then themselves, sometimes 50+ times, would really lean towards the factor of some serious chemical imbalances (I would say) only possible by the introduction of these kinds of drugs.

Not to mention, lot's of these cases get off on SSRI defense.... meaning it's a known and accepted factor.

[girlgun]

Originally Posted by Katy

mumbling "I'm dying" on the way down. Felt like my brain was melting, like gravity was pulling my head through the floor. Really did think I was dying. Maybe having a stroke or something. Not fun.

i had what i'm pretty sure were a few seizures (not convulsive... absence type) awhile back. floatingslowly witnessed the first one. it was really scary. i think he thought it was scary too. i thought i was having a stroke.. i get you. ugh.

that by no means is the worst thing that has happened to me. emotional stuff always seems more painful than physical stuff.

this thread is too fucking sad.

[sonicpixie]

holy shit. i was attempting to remain unconvinced but u kinda got me... thats messed up, the brain is so damn fragile

[Satan]

i'm pretty sure i had a seizure from smoking a shitload of weed one time. it was fucking weird.

[Better_Than_Deux]

from weed???!??!

[jennthebenn]

Originally Posted by sonicpixie

were they able to help u properly once they knew what it was?

Once they told me what it was, and I looked at all the prescription options
I had...I decided to treat it myself. That's mainly through breathing and
relaxation techniques and daily doses of magnesium. Far cheaper--and far
safer--than pills pills pills.

[Satan]

Originally Posted by Better_Than_Deux

from weed???!??!

either that or it was a coincidence

i'll go with coincidence since i'm pretty sure that weed does not cause seizures ever

[FreshChops]

Originally Posted by Satan

either that or it was a coincidence

i'll go with coincidence since i'm pretty sure that weed does not cause seizures ever

laced weed maybe?

[Satan]

i'm looking into this, apparently it probably had meth in it? whatever.